Unusual You...

Baby, you're so unusual.
Didn't anyone tell you you're supposed to break my heart.

I expect you to.

So why haven't you?

Baby, you're not even human 'cause only an angle could be so unsual

A sweet suprise I could get used to.

Unusual You

Boxer in the ring, trying to defend myself.

Hire a private eye to see what's going on.

When I'm with you I can be myself.

You always were when you say you will be

Shocking cuz I never knew this could exist.

Tables are turning.

My heart is learning.

That you'll never let me down

Answer the call.

Here after all.

Never met anyone like you.

I hope you can handle my heart...

"I hope you know what you're doing..."

I don't think I am ever going to actually "know what I am doing." But isn't that the fun part of life? Aren't we supposed to take chances, live a little and love a lot. If, in the end it doesn't work out at least we can say we tried. It may result in a little heartbreak but with time that will heal and life will go on to bigger and better things. I will never be certain that what I "am doing" is the right thing but damn it I will live a bit and learn a lot. And I will be a stronger more open and loving person after it all! Life is beautiful so love the life you live and be certain that what you are doing and where you are is EXACTLY where you are supposed to be!!

Serenity

This summer I have learned a lot about how important it is to take time out of each day to acknowledge yourself; your body, spirit, and all around well being. I am working at a summer camp where I deal with frustrated over weight teens daily. This becomes taxing on my body because I am working with these kids from 7am to 10pm daily, on my spirit because no one likes to deal with frustrated people and it is hard to keep spirits up when all around there is negativity. I have begun to take time out, even if it is just 5min, to calm myself and acknowledge my being alive. Some of the things I have found to be important to me as a woman to do are:

1. First and foremost wash your face in the morning. The splash of cold water on my face leaves me invigorated and feeling fresh and ready to go. This is also a great pick me up throughout the day!
2. Take time to breathe..... Ready? Go, close your eyes, deep breath in...... exhale all the way. This exercise is useful when I am frustrated and just need to calm down. Also, I do this when it is so wonderful outside I just can't get enough. I breath it all in until I can't take in any more.
3. Work out. Whether it be a ten minute walk for you or a 3mile run and an hour of lifting weights in the gym. Any form of exercising is a wonderful way to make yourself feel refreshed and alive as a woman. Do it because you want to not because others want you to. This is something we should do for ourselves.
4. Walk tall and strong. Own your walk, be an independent woman walking with a purpose and a pleasant look on your face. Not only do you steal the attention when you walk in a room but you also feel beautiful and empowered.. Try it. You will be surprised.
5. Dress in clothes that fit. Sometimes it's nice to just be a bum but when you go out put on some mascara and some casual, cute clothing. You will feel much more alert and womanly.

With this said, we all should embrace today. It is beautiful, you are beautiful. There will never be another today so, don't put off for tomorrow what you can do for yourself today!

Fish

I'm Finally 21 :O) woooo!! It's about time I'd say. My night was pretty awesome on my 21st. It was pretty perfect; low key, not too many people but lots of drinks. It was a night I will never forget thats for sure. We went to the bars and the next day to the karaoke bar in the small town of Waynesville NC. I was all excited to drink that night again but go figure I forgot my ID at camp so I ended up being the sober driver on the night of my birthday.. haha o well it was still fun!! I have to say it is nice being 21 and being able to go where I please without a worry.

The Bar

I went to the bar last night with some of the people that I work  with. We had a blast listening to the people doing a terrible job singing a long with the terrible songs they chose to sing to. After a while this cute guy wearing a Chevron shirt walks in... I didnt have the guts to tlk to him but eventually I did.. go figure. I headed towards the bathroom, made eye contact and bam he talked to me. This is how the o so entertaining conversation went:

Chevron: "Do I know you?"
Me: "no"
Chevron: "O... well I love you."
Me: "....u too."
Chevron: "Will you marry me?"
Me: "Yes, but let me pee first."
Chevron: "Ok... wanna make out later?"
Me: "What's your name?"
Chevron: "Brian.. when you come back from the bathroom grab my ass."
Me: "I'll be back."

I then went to the bathroom, came back and sat back down at my table. This conversation with Brian was very short and random but it made me smile. It's funny how the small things in life start to mean more. Since I have been at camp little things like a stranger noticing that you are a woman and can look good make me more happy than ever before. I find myself laughing at Chevron Brian and appreciating his slightly inapropriate very honest gesture.

Camp

Sooo I finally made it to North Carolina and talk about a wake up call. There is nothing like the feeling of an ice cold shower in the evening after a long, hot, rainy day. Top it off with a nice restless night on the thinnest matress I have ever seen and were off to a good start... NOT

I was so overwhelmed in the beginning; three meals a day, less than 1500cals, 10g of fat and 5 miles of running and I was beginning to worry that I was going to waste away. But, this problem was solved quickly and we now get secons and things are getting better. We now have a hot shower, internet, and cell phone reception.

I finally got into my office and got organized as well as finished some of my homework making my life easier and much more stress free!! Tonight we are off and are all headed to Asheville, NC for the night and tomorrow :O) well its dinner time!!

Music

Music washes away from the soul

the dust of everyday life.

- Berthold Auerbach