Grape Juice and Good Friends

Tonight I had a girls night out with my friend Gabe. We went to dinner (Mexican food and Margaritas of course), came back to her apartment exchanged gifts and watched the movie Julie & Julia while drinking sparkling grape juice out of the new pink stemmed wine glasses I got her for her Christmas gift.

Yes, I said sparkling grape juice... unfortunately Elizabethtown is a dry county AND it is a Sunday so we had to settle for juice. The juice was a flop. It tasted like bubbly white grape juice with a bit of buttered popcorn... TERRIBLE. But the chocolate, movie and dinner were great so the buttered grape juice was just sent to the trash. At least it provided a great laugh.

Good times and great friends I would not trade them for the world! :-) Goodnight!

Hello World

Today I am exhausted. I sometimes wonder why I do the things I do. I try my hardest to be the person I want to be but it is so hard when the respect is lacking. I do anything to have respect for myself but it is hard when I can't trust others to do the same. I wonder why I put myself out there to always get shot down or disappointed. I try my hardest to keep a smile on and just move on but that is exhausting in itself. I can only do that for so long until I just get tired of it. I am so tired of expecting the worst out of relationships and it actually coming true. I need to take time on my own, I need to breathe and think on my own, do something for myself for once and gain my strength back. I love my life and have learned it is not about waiting for the storm to pass but about dancing in the rain. :-)

Gravity - Sara Bareilles

Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long
No matter what I say or do
I still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone
You hold me without touch
You keep me without chains
I never wanted anything so much
Than to drown in your love and not feel your rain
Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me
You loved me 'cause I'm fragile
When I thought that I was strong
But you touch me for a little while
And all my fragile strength is gone
Set me free, leave me be
I don't wanna fall another moment into your gravity
Here I am and I stand so tall
I'm just the way I'm supposed to be
But you're on to me and all over me


I live here on my knees
As I try to make you see
That you're everything I think I need
Here on the ground


But you're neither friend nor foe
Though I can't seem to let you go
The one thing that I still know
Is that you're keeping me down
You're keeping me down


You're on to me, on to me and all over
Something always brings me back to you
It never takes too long

Thunderstorms

I love thunderstorms. Plain and simple. They make me want to curl up in bed, listen to the rain against my window and the thunder chrashing outside and fall asleep. When it thunderstorms at night I feel especially lucky because I can do just that, in fact I did last night. Right as I was falling asleep last night it started to pour rain, lightning and thunder. I couldn't have been more content with my life at that moment.

I dont know why but I think that thunderstorm allowed me to relax for once in long time. I woke up this morning smiling. When my alarm went off at 8am I shot up out of bed positive I was late for work. Thankfully I realized before I got to the bathroom it was Tuesday. I don't have class until 9:30. I actually laughed and got right back into bed.

Finally got up at 9 ate breakfast, put in my laundry, got dressed in what clean clothes I had left (a zip up sports jacket and black exercise pants.. my stomach was slightly showing but whatever its movement class right??...) and went to class. My teacher called my name, looked at me and said wow you have a beautiful smile today! You look very happy for some reason! That made my day :-) I'd like to thank last night's wreckless thunderstorm for the smile on my face today. 

Shoes

I went shoe shopping yesterday. I had set out to buy a new pair of white leather keds seeing as how I have practically ruined the ones I have now. So I went into Shoe Carnival with the intentions of just buying those shoes and leaving. Well, I just happened to forget what wide array of shoes they had in their store... PROBLEM! I stumbled upon a pair of plaid polo shoes for $20 so of course I had to buy them along with the pair of keds I found. Anyways I am wearing these wonderful shoes today and I feel like a new person!!

Cherish the little things in life like a new pair of shoes :-)

Lessons for Life

This is an email I was sent and I thought it has some really good stuff in it so I'm sharing it with you...

1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.2. Memorize your favorite poem.
3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have, or loaf all you want.
4. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
5. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
6. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
7. Believe in love at first sight.
8. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
9. Love deeply and passionately. You may get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely.
10. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name-calling.
11. Don't judge people by their relatives, or by the life they were born into.
12. Teach yourself to speak slowly but think quickly.
13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
14. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
15. Call your mother.
16. Say, "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
17. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
18. Follow the three Rs: Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for all your actions.
19. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
20. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
21. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
22. Marry a person you love to talk to. As you get older, his/her conversational skills will be even more important.
23. Spend some time alone.
24. Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values.
25. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
26. Read more books. Television is no substitute.
27. Live a good, honorable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.
28. Trust in God but lock your car.
29. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life. Do all you can to create a tranquil, harmonious home.
30. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.
31. Don't just listen to what someone is saying. Listen to why they are saying it.
32. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.
33. Be gentle with the earth.
34. Pray or meditate. There's immeasurable power in it.
35. Never interrupt when you are being flattered.
36. Mind your own business.
37. Don't trust anyone who doesn't close his/her eyes when you kiss.
38. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.
39. If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others while you are living. It is wealth's greatest satisfaction.
40. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
41. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.
42. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.
43. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.
44. Live with the knowledge that your character is your destiny.
45. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

Honey and Milk

When I think of forever I think of May when I graduate and get a job. I have always known I wanted to have a family but had never thought it would happen to me before like my mid 20's. Im not sure why but it just has never crossed my mind. So when presented with the question of children and a family I kind of freeze up. I guess it was just a completely new thought that someone would actually want to have a family with me.

I did some thinking and I discovered I would love to have a family and children and that it's not a crazy idea to think it could happen to me as soon as I wanted. It's a good feeling, knowing that I want to be a mom to have a family with a loving hubby :) shalom!